My friend Natalia and her sister Arianna have started a sister's blog - which led me here....and I had to log in in order to follow their blog (they're very funny and remind me a lot of my relationship with my own sister)....and when I logged in, and saw my own blog, I realized it has been an insanely long time since I wrote here.

If I look at the pattern, it would seem that I blog when I'm grieving. Huh. Interesting pattern.

Ah well - I'm grieving again, so there you go.

Speaking of the grieving process. Wow - it's not linear...it's like a spiraling onion....and I'm trying again to just honor whatever feelings come up, trusting the process and that whatever it is...it's normal. And temporary.

Reading a great book by SARK - one that was gifted to me by my generous friend Diane...it's called "Glad No Matter What - Transforming Loss and Change into Gift and Opportunity."

I totally buy into it....that grief and loss can give way to something beautiful and growing.

I also believe that we are all spiritual beings having experiences in physical bodies. And if THAT's true....then when our physical bodies die, we're still spiritual beings very much alive.

And yet....even though all that's true....I'm in the midst of some pretty dark grief filled days....and find myself wondering how or if I'll ever really be happy again....or if I'll get to a point in the process where I don't cry every day.

But - more about that later. I'm exhausted....and blogging now would be kinda like drunk dialing. Good to be back, and I have my friend to thank....